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creative white noise: small steps in the dark

August 11, 2019

I am trying something new.

In addition to waking up at 5:00am each day as a way of giving myself time to nurture myself physically, creatively, and emotionally, I am setting myself a creative challenge:

I have to create SOMETHING every single week. 

I am a full-time secondary school music teacher, so this is an audacious ask. But more and more I am drawn to the truth that creativity is so essential to my wellbeing that I need to explore the constructs of it in more detail.

Composing and writing for me are double-edged saws. I love to express myself and get to the heart of what I am trying to say, yet I struggle and circle endlessly in a painful creative agony getting started when I try to be creative during the term.

I know exactly what it is; it’s the fact that my “creative craft” during the week is teaching; this is where I am being my most imaginative, where I am have the playful and creative conversations, and where I am problem-solving like a MF. All my energies are poured into the classroom.

But I am giving outwards, this is not a creativity that necessary nurtures me fully.

I’ve also discovered that when I am confronted with a choral commission, or a creative piece of work, or even just knowing myself during the term, I am like a stoppered bottle. I feel as if I have to scrape the layer off the outside of myself to find the good stuff, or even just stuff!, and then I wander around with handfuls of words like a sleep-walker trying to figure out what I am trying to say.

I am beginning to see that to care for myself as a creative being, I need to be creative on a weekly and daily basis. Not just for others, but for myself.

So here’s the challenge:

  • Creative something, however haphazard and messy each week.
  • Get curious about musical language and words.
  • Find a moment each week to explore.
  • Just write, no filter.
  • Write what I want to hear, not what I think what the world wants to see.

In taking the creative reins I am reaching for a bigger point of healing; while I consider myself playful, imaginative and courageous in the realm of creativity, I haven’t practised the scope of my language, and the repertoire of sounds and words I can use to express myself.

And secondly, I wonder if I have ever written solely for myself. It’s a stark realisation, and one that I am heading straight into with a sense of wild freedom and adventure!

music teachers are “unique”!

August 3, 2019

Staff Member No. 1: “WHAT TIME were you at school this morning?!”
Me: “We were at school at 6:15 this morning + packed and on our way to Balaklava by 7:00am.”
Staff Member No. 1: “As in A-M-in-the-morning?!”
Me (Laughing because it was now currently 3:00pm and I was standing in front of him so what else could it be?): “Yep!”
Staff Member No. 1: “Why the hell would you…?”
Staff Member No. 2: “For God’s sake, stop questioning it! She’s a MUSIC TEACHER, they do STUPID SHIT LIKE THAT.”
🤣

prevention is key…!

July 6, 2019

Love this!

#currentfeels

June 30, 2019

What a kid!

that’s one interpretation…!

June 28, 2019

Sir Year 6: “Waiting for the end of term to roll around is like watching a giant pimple grow and not being able to pop it. The suspense is killing me!”

Wow.

Disgusting, but very apt.

#engrish

June 10, 2019

My draft report comments are freakin’ DONE. I can’t promise coherency or even complete sentences, but there are WORDS for EVERY KID. Some even meet the character requirements.

Now believe me when I say I’m not trying to win any gold-star awards here, this is simply damage control for the weeks ahead for the up-coming music performances + concerts which obstruct my lovely clear pathway to holidays.

#musicteacherlife

Current state: “Ha?! You speak-a the Engrish to me? I go over here to good drinking the nice wine!”, while my sorry-arse linguistic abilities recover from overuse.

“I no successful the Engrish speaking, one moment prease…”

(I can, I’m Asian. 😂)

truth

June 8, 2019

#truth

#legocomplex + sonata form

June 1, 2019

Sir Year 12: “And that right there would be the end of the EXPOSITION, and the REASON why I know is because I built this god-damn giant Lego TOWER in Year 9 to represent the structure of Sonata Form. I have a total Lego complex now and still twitch, but hey, at least I can tell you everything about augmentation, fragmentation, diminution, and key relationships, right?!”

Me: “I never said it had to be Lego. You made that choice.”

Sir Year 12: “AUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!”

student parent teacher interviews: living the dream

May 18, 2019

All teachers will know this to be true:

There’s a “head-down-eyes-down-make-a-beeline-for-nearest-exit” walk-run that ALL teachers do at the end of Student Parent Teacher interviews.

Leave the laptop behind, we ain’t doing any work tonight. Don’t worry about the lunchbox, there’s heaps of spare Tupperware at home.

Don’t look up, don’t engage, and for God’s sake, DO NOT SMILE AND LOOK WELCOMING.

Get. The. Hell. Out.

(I love teaching, I really do…! 😂)

#howwasyourday🤣
#roundtwotomorrownight